tisiv ot ecalp ecin a si lleh

2009-12-12T22:23:00.006+08:00

When you're nineteen, you become a fishball.

Familiar format huh? Cus I'm the other half :) The Farahin half! Hahaha.

Happy nineteenthsy bitsy. Today is another twelfth. I swear I didn't realize it cus things are happening too quickly for us yes? Hols will be over soon, you'll be starting work soon and everyth is just happening too quickly. Eee I don't like! But I would love for it all to be over till 2018 thought :) Hehe shy.

Anyways, thank you for just now. Technically not only just now but for everyth in the past nineteen months and the few months before!! You're seriously too nice a person. Except when it comes to fishballs -.- Mean mean mean. That's the only thing you must improve uh you. Tsk.

Not forgetting the wearing-the-same-thing-by-fate part too. Hate much!!!!!!!!!!!
And don't laugh at me when I rock on chairs la pls.
Fun yknow.

I'm now stressing cus I bet you got a long long post for me but mine is just plain crap. I apologize cus I really can't think now. You make me speechless :D Aww corneh huh? Enough now. Hehe. Very shy to say a lot of things here.

I'm ending my post here, I'm honestly terrified to see your post. Yeeeps.
I love youuuuuuuuuuuu.
(BIG BIG HEARTZ)

2009-11-22T00:17:00.003+08:00

well, there is a reason i'm here.

i wanna apologize, to the girl who has made my life worth livimg. To the girl who has righted my man wrongs. The girl who has been showering me with all the love in the world.

i know you must've been looking forward to 23/11 cos we've got a date. but now you'd hafta wait all the way til 28/11. yeeps. that sure as hell is still far far away. ._.

whatever it is, you know that i have always and will always love you with all my heart, the way i have been doing since day one. these small small obstacles that we face will make us stronger and it would definitely be good practice for the years to come before 2018.

this post is meant for you. read it when you're feeling down okay? remember all the great times that we had whenever you feel like the world is failing you.

inevitably, we would both definitely be missing each other very much, i dont avoid that fact. yes, i am having my own doubts bout going over now, but you seem very supportive of it so i've decided to go for it, and also to give it my all, make you proud.

please, i beg you, hold on to your words yeah? i feel terrible as it is and i hope it doesnt go to the extent that you cry yeah? i know it'll be tough for you, but please, muster that additional strength from wherever yeah? we can do this, i just know that we can.

thursday evening-ish, i'll already be back yeah honey? i look forward to hear how your days went and also to share with you how my days were and what happened yeah? four days sure is a long time, but we sure have what it takes.

though we'll be hundreds of kilometers apart you know that i am always thinking you in all that i do. you know that though we're so freaking far away from each other, i still am loving you alot as though we were never separated and as though we were tgh all along. distance makes the heart fonder yes? is that even the right phrase? ._.

though we're far apart, you knw that you can count on me to be taking good care of myself and making the right decisions the same way i've got that faith in you yeah hun? i will come back on thursday evening, and you must be there fine and in he pink of health.

please take very good care of yourself, i cannot afford to let anything happen to you, my dear. if anybody from the cube happens to read this, do me a huge favour, please take very good care of Farahin, and be there for her when i can't. thanks in advance!

do remember the promise that you made me yeah honey? we must be helping each other. its super tough to be going, really. dont be sad okay? i should be back quicker than you expect it.

through those four days, do not forget how much this boy right here loves you and how much this by needs you. as well as how much you mean to this boy.

farahin, you are my everything. sorry that things happened this way. i love you alot, i really do.

please dont forget me, or cry, when i'm away.

2009-09-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

Hi N’s blog!

To those reading this, I haven’t told N anything about blogging for him so let’s keep it this way till he finds out for himself yeah?

I happened to be here and a sudden guilt rushed through my body.
On February 7th, I actually said “I'm gonna keep this blog alive until I do not have the ability to do so then."

Sorry honey, I only just realized.

Let’s get to something very important now!
Happy sixteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeenth
:D
Old? And loving it.

The older we get, the tougher things will be too yes?
Just like the uglier we will be with all the wrinkles.
Hehe.
But you’ll still love me even with wrinkles yes?!
Yes?!
You better do, man.

Today might be the last day we spend our few hours together.
You better start mugging your ass off I tell you.
Or I’ll use a shovel to get you started.
Teehee.

Start with N.
What has he been up to?
Hmm idk, seriously I don’t.
Always running around here and there.
Being more gay by the second.
Kinda scary sometimes, but what can I do?
He’s still my N aye.
Hahaha.

Till next time, though next time’s still far.
Eoys up ahead for me, prelims for N.
Goodnight.

I love N. ♥

2009-09-09T03:09:00.002+08:00

its an overload.
too many things too little time.
insufficient energy.
annoying people.
the blizzard goes on, but still they must fly.
no one should go, where eagles dare
They dared to go where no one would try
They chose to fly where eagles dare

So understand
Dont waste your time always
Searching for those wasted years
Face up...
make your stand
And realise youre living in the golden years

2009-09-02T20:47:00.001+08:00

"When Love And Hate Collide"

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind

Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time

I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call

When divided we stand baby, united we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it

Got my hands on your heart gonna take it

All I know I can't fight this flame

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind

Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you

One night alone Is like a year without you baby

Do you have a heart of stoneWithout you

Can't stop the hurt insideWhen love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for

When we treat each other baby, like an act of war

I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise

When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason

And I know I got a love to believe in

All I know got to win this time

[Repeat Chorus]

[SOLO]

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind

Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...

Crazy...

Crazy

Without you

One night alone

Is like a year without you baby

Do you have a heart of stone

Without you

One night alone

Is like a year without you baby

If you have a heart at all

Without you

Can't stop the hurt inside

When love and hate collide

2009-06-10T19:01:00.002+08:00

i am sorry.
really i am.

2009-06-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

happy?
hope ypucan sleep now lol.

2009-04-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

hello world,
you suck.
hello life,
you rock.
;D
well, a certain saying means more to me now.
and that is,
you've got to cherish everything you've got.

and since i'm here today,

happy eleventh my dear.
through it all, the good times, the terrible times and the normal times.
all that i said to you on the phone,
they came from the bottom of my heart and with the most sincerity you can imagine.
three words you hear daily,
i love you.
though said alot, they only get more sincere after everyone.
to end, i want you to know that you're my everything.

2009-03-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

okay,
just needed to get a super heavy load off of my chest.
and to keep things clear,
i wasn't referring to farahin.

you're all the way at kota tinggi, probably having the best time of your life.
three days went by like a sloth.
or a lumbering behemoth for that matter.
i miss you like hell baby, i really do
:D

and idk why, but recently i've been dreading the end of the day.
school seems to be my only escape.
i'm sorry for all the toes that i trudged on since last week.
and for this week too,
i think these days are the worst of my life.
oh well, enough of complains.
life ain't no bed or roses.
ain't no pleasure cruise.

here i am,
counting the seconds left till your return.
i love you farahin!

2009-03-05T20:37:00.002+08:00

eh stop it sia,
i've had enough of your fucked up ways.
go out there and do as you please.
don't talk to me,
just fucking leave me alone.
i don't need you, and it's proven.
all you've ever done is make my life terrible.
and this has been going on for years now.
and i think i've given it my all.
faith and trust, something you should never have touched.
look at it now,
i lost all my respect for you.
i don't know if i can hold you to your word.
all that you've done for me,
thanks i'll say.
and for all the times where i was your punching bag,
i hope you enjoyed it.
cos now,
you'll have to find you a new one.
you won't bother me anymore.
you're just another speck of dust on my table of life.
i don't fucking need you
two last words for you,
FUCK OFF.

2009-02-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

IT'S OR AYEEEEEEE, I LOVE YOU :D

Hahaha. This post shall be kept short and sweet, like me! OMG NOOO -.- What am I saying?!!?! Because I ain't short man.

Sorry bout next week. God I feel like evileeny (sp) I shall book a day for you, promise with pinky and thumb and toes!

;D

Okay I wanna sleep alreadyyy! These eyes are being so foolish at the wrong times.

Goodnight blogger! I'm gonna keep this blog alive until I do not have the ability to do so then.

With love,
Farahin the Farahin :D

2008-12-29T01:05:00.003+08:00

dont ask me what the hell i'm doing here at this time.
i know, i should be sleeping.
linkin park live in texas on channel v didn't help.
-.-
kept me awake till now though it ended ages ago.
guess i'll try and go ready laa.

sorry for all that,
i explained everything already.
and yea, my words are honest.
times are not so smooth right now,
even simple things can turn out complex.
i guess it's my fault.
i just needed the truth,
and that i got.
it's a new start,
things will work out better.
:D
i love you, farahin.

2008-12-27T15:29:00.001+08:00

now then, would some kind soul PLEASE tell me what the fuck is going on?
and give me some answers at the same time.
i'm a lost sheep.
no purpose or sense of direction.
congrats naz.

confused much.

2008-12-04T10:38:00.002+08:00

you tell me,
how long more do i have to put up with this?
how many more times you gonna do this?
things just aren't the same.
every action has a reaction.
have you ever thought of how i feel?
have you?
i doubt so.

2008-11-14T21:52:00.004+08:00

happy belated sixth months farahin!

this past six months,
many things sure have happened.
from the good times, to the pretty screwed up ones.

thanks for going through every single thing with me.
guess it's true,
when we have disagreements and conflicts,
and when we learn from them,
we get closer.
we notice how much we need each other,
and how much we don't wanna be apart.
sorry for all the times that i hurt you cos of what i do.
i won't have pulled through that certain chapter of my life,
if it wasn't for those words of yours.
i'm sorry for those tears.
thanks for understanding my feelings and forgiving my actions.
you're the person that keeps the smile plastered on this face.
the one that keeps this heart beating.
the one who taught me loads of stuffs.
the one who makes me laugh when my worlds crying.
one things for sure,
i'll miss you like hell when you're away at sumatra.
this ain't no lie.

I LOVE YOU FARAHIN! <3

2008-11-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyyyyyyyyzxs, Naz is busy watching Naruto/ Samurai X or something so I shall be a superbly awesome person like I always am and post on behalf of that hell of a lazybum :D And yes, I’m Farahin.

I bet he was the loner of the day for today and yesterday because I was at chalet but he found a new source of entertainment. Congratulations. Which is why he isn’t posting this! Haha. Haven’t you heard that neglect is never an option? No? Neither have I.

Tomorrow is the twelfth!
Tomorrow is the twelfth!
Tomorrow is the twelfth!
Tomorrow is the twelfth!
Tomorrow is the twelfth!
Tomorrow is the twelfth!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Now that better act as a reminder though I’m praying you remembered.

By the way, I will never in my life approve Naruto or Samurai X. Gossip girl is a much better option, honey! Trust me, I know what’s best here. Or try Desperate housewives or something. Hahahaha. We live in a non-violent world remember?

Okay this is long enough rights? Yes it is. No bargains man.
Let's try adding some color :)

I LOVE NAZREH :D

2008-11-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

yes, you're stressed.
that still doesn't give you reason to do what you did.
what have either of us ever done to deserve this?
you should have seen how mum was you ass.
that's it.
now, it's official.
since you were not remorseful at all,
and since you didnt even have the balls to apologize,
here and now i'll state this.
i have lost every single bit of respect for you.
and i regret ever looking up to you.
everyone has a choice.
you took the wrong one.

2008-11-06T22:38:00.002+08:00

hhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllloooooooooooo.
finally, my last day of school.
played cs after soo long.
nadir, ko tk berguna.
haha.
then lepak-ed awhile.
guess truncated was pretty okay.
shakir, you're the first malay everyth laa.
loser.
dnt, surprisingy, was funner without taha and hasif.
haha.
no offence intended.

2008-10-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

okay,
few days been preettttty deadly.
been doing quite alot of thinking.
even dreamt of it.
damn.
anyways,
i noticed how it's you that suffers most when i screw up.
this i would like to apologize for.
and thanks for standing by me through it all.
through the countless times i felt like letting it all go.
you've got no idea how thankful i am i met you.
i doubt i'd be here now if it aint for you.
you're the best i swear.
i know it's hard for you too.
but i was just opening up to you.
and thanks for understanding.
i really owe you alot.
i really couldn't have pulled through if it weren't for those words of yours.
thanks for everything, my love.

farahin, i love you.

2008-10-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

gahh.

2008-10-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

whats this i feel?
fuck.
the happenings and stuff i saw in the past week,
it only makes things worst.

2008-10-15T21:00:00.001+08:00

Hard days made me
Hard nights shaped me
I don't know they somehow saved me
And I know I'm making something out of this life they call nothing
I take what I want
take what I need
they say it's wrong, but it's right for me
I won't look down
Won't say I'm sorry
I know that only God can judge me

[Chorus]
And if I make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am I just running in place
And if I stumble and I fall
Should I get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and I don't care
I don't care

And no one in this industry
understands the life I lead
when I sing about my past
it's not a gimmick, not an act
These critics, and these trust fund kids
try to tell me what punk is
but when I see them on the street they got nothing to say

[Chorus]
And if I make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am I just running in place
And if I stumble and I fall
Should I get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and I don't care
I don't care
I don't care...
and now I don't care

I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
that I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and I don't care
I don't care. I don't care. I don't care

2008-10-13T20:23:00.001+08:00

i'm at a loss for words now.
idk what to think already.
leave it to rest.
i won't let this build up inside of me.
now i remember.
till then,
love you plenty.

2008-10-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

ahh,
fyes are behind us all.
hariraya didn't feel like it should.
don't ask why.
been feeling damn screwed recently too.
at least i've got pokemon for company.
:D
this is gonna be short.
skype is being a total bitch.
no, the laptop.
till then,

we're four days away from an awesomerific five.
love you plenty.

2008-09-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

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$95 till Nov 7
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ANYFUCKINGBODY INTERESTED?

2008-09-05T08:07:00.003+08:00

first things first,

happy birthday to my sister,

damn you're old.

hahaha.

guess i'll see you on the twentysecond december.

better have a present for me from there.

seacom '08.

it wasn't as smooth sailing as i hoped.

heats were okay generally.

finals on the 5th,

first up was part a singles.

sean and yijie did a great job thats fer sure.

part b's,

shirong and darren.

darren went on with his plans on doing the bolt celebration. haha.

shirong was good too.

part ceeeees.

jon, dont worry bout it yea?

i'm happy for you, its unexpected.

you were great.

asyraf, you lost to IAN again!!!

=.=

on to doubles,

i challenged the part a's.

if they could own the other schools i'd get each of the competitors a bottle of 100plus.

they were close to not getting top 3.

we were in lane 8.

and had to cut back in while the rest went straight.

damn.

part b doubles was okay i guess,

darren&hakjin,

aslvis derick.

part c,

asyraf&hasif

chris&hengkiat.

so tk won overall boys singles champion,

overall boys doubles champions

and the one we never gave up since 6 yrs ago,

overall boys champions.

well done tksea.

oh when tk

goes kayaking

we are the defending champions.

countdown:6 days.

lookng forward to it uhh,

i'm missing you like(insert adjective here)

2008-08-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

samsul was such a great pillow that i fell asleep fer awhile awaiting shaz.
haha.
and aaron i think was leaning on me.
wow.
first things first,
i'm sorry man.
it was a promise.
and i couldn't tell you.
but you did find out what.
okay, weeks been fucked.
got back results.
too little too late.
maybe i would be seeing mr kang.
at least i passed emath,
must see the bright side.
then again, is there a bright a side to this suffering?
phone is officially fucked uhh.
it can split into two now man.
wow.
i should put it in a museum or something uhh.
ahh,
the time is near.
one month huhh?
lets not think bout the time away.
how bout the great times after that?
;D
oh well,
i'm sick and tired inside.
till then
these are my last words
and this is my last breath
I'd give you everything
if there was something left
i have nothing left to prove
and i will live with my regrets
Stand up!
You know you have the right too!
Speak up!
For the things you that you believe!
And we lift off!
And they will stab you in the back over again
Take your integrity.

2008-08-18T10:53:00.003+08:00

shaddap, i was high.

these few days sure has been pretty fucked.

CT's are over, but fye looms.

damn, and i'm sick again.

wth is wrong.

seacom is coming and i can safely say,

this year would be tough.

considering the fact that everything was changed,

and that its during the fasting month.

schoools ndp parade was okay,

i forgot one part, luckily everything got covered up.

phew.

and i was told that i was louder during the rehearsels.

oh well, whats done is done. so yea.

the inspection was rather funny,

considering the fact that everyone was asked the same questions.

the drills were perfeect too.

though, we should have done the parade like it was done in '01.

where there were three GOH contingents.

Land, Sea and NPCC.

that would have been awesome uhh.

man, i miss you. alot.

we have to hang out soon aight?

super sorry bout ths morning uhh, didn't expect this to happen.

happy belated three months too!

it's been an awesome three uhh.

and millions more to come.

quoting you,

going through all these obstacles together only makes our relationship stronger.

i'll always be here when you need me uhh.

i love you loads lovee.

2008-07-21T17:33:00.002+08:00

i will suffer for so long,
to make it up to you.
i'll do whatever you want me to do,
and if its not enough,
i'll try again and again over and over again.
i'm feeling rather screwed.
i miss you more than usual,
it's been way too long uhh.
and with what you said earlier on,
i have to prepare myself.
for that month full of pureness.
and its during the exam time.
so we have everything in the world to gain.
and i can't seem to say what i really want to when i'm with you.
maybe its cos i finally realize something.
that nothing is going the way it should.
its a great thing i have you.
the rest of my life is in tatters.
the way i get blamed for everything.
by the people i never expected.
maybe you guys just cant get used to not having sis around.
but do i have to be your fucken punching bag?
move there and leave me here for all i care.
i'd be way better off i swear.
this is the part where i scream,
but i'm not gonna let this get so far.
i'll fight with these eyes closed,
to protect what i believe in.
and thinking over what has been happening,
it ain't surprising that things are like this.
ever since sis left,
you two started making it hell.
well done uhh.
your knight in shining armor, will make your dreams come true.
he's not quite as charming as he may seem.
i admit, i'm just a fool for you.
i tried making you two happy,
but it wasn't worth it.
i though it'd be easy.
fuck, i was wrong.
i'm trying to let you know,
i'm just fine.
you took whats left of me,
and threw it all away.
can you guys fucking think how it affects other people?
other than yourselves?
you guys don't make the fucking world turn.
think it over.
till then,
i'm pretty much better now.
having gotten all these off my head.
but please, i've got my own views.
let me speak up for myself for once.
i already broke out of that shell,
even you would know.
hun, i love you laa.
we so have to hang out really soon!
after all the failed saturdays!
:D

2008-07-07T10:40:00.003+08:00

democracy is trampled on the floor.
oh well.
last day with my sister huh?
idk laa.
mixed emotions.
i'm happy for her uhh,
but at the same time
i don't want her to go.
so yeah,
alot of pple came over.
alot of food uhh.
power.
oh yeah, you get a free bun if you come to the airport!
;D
inside joke uhhh.
gna meet up with the dearest one later on before going to the airport.
damn its been a long time.
and this saturday,
it would be the greatest 2 months uhh.
:D

my last week was fucked uhh.
went to school for two days only.
wtf.
and i'm still sick.
damn.
went to ncc,
greatest regret of the week.
got pulled out of pt,
and i felt like shit after that.
oh well,
homework yet to be done.
i'm screwed.

till then,
saturday was wasted uhh, but it's okay. i understand. :D
and after today it's gonna be tough huh? oh well, this is super thick, but we strong pple are gonna smash it laa. iloveyou dear! and happy happy 2 months in advance uhh. :D

2008-07-01T18:46:00.005+08:00

damn,
i think my immune system is fucked.
i'm falling sick yet again.
D:
now it's the flu.
shit.
oh well, obs was mundane.
esp the time without phone.
even tougher than i ever expected.
let's see,
day 1.
went to camp 2, got into our watches, i was in marco polo.
was kinda skeptical since i knew little people, other than the few from 2E.
glad heetesh was there. so admin dragged on and on. then food was being given out, and after lunch we did belaying.
well, guys all had problems concealing a few stuffs.
RIGHT MERILYN AND JASMINE?
TSKTSKTSK. sick people.(;
it was fun cos that was the first real activity we did.
dinner was after that, i was kinda ticked off that we didn't have proper food for lunch,but ahboo,
our instructor is right, who would cater food for people who trek in the woods?
so we cooked rice, which was the start of nazri's madness. what the hell as i thinking. it's a good thing i accidentally deleted the other photo of me being mr ahyar. ;D tribute to the greatest lit and english teacher i've ever met. so yeah, after that was sleep. i kinda slept the whole night. dar was alr asleep by lights out so i couldn't call.

day 2

in the morning we had breakfast, but i didn't eat a thing cos i had no appetite.then we wrote in a tiny journal, which i couldn't be bothered to do. standard uhh.hmm, after that was rockclimbing.i decided to be a little enthu, so i went first. i got to the secondlast tile, already way past my expectations, then i got a lil tired and couldnt be bothered to keep trying. so much for enthu-ness huh? after that we were supposed to have a kayakinng expedition. so they obviously had to teach us the basics. i capsized with ahboo. not fun at all. then she taught us the t rescue. oh yeah, there was buoyancy test, and merilyn was freaking out. so since i didnt want her to panic i went with her. eventually she was my partner and we breezed through the expedition to camp 1. let's see, no bathing there. wow. sentry duty was done by us, interrupt my sleep only. tent was crowded, and it was HOT. plus STUFFY. heetesh, thanks for helping out with the bag full of ponchos uhh. i myself couldnt handle it. grats dude.

day 3

day of land expedition.woke up feeling like shit, after breakfast which i didnt eat, cos was somewhat full from the two packets of maggi or myojo. then we trekked awhile to some open place.there, the headache got worst. but i didn't wanna say anything, so i just shutted up. so on with the trek, i couldn't take it anymore after the second checkpoint. i sat and started shivering in the middle of some jungle in ubin. then i started to vomit. fuck. i really dont remember anything anyone said. in fact i only remember silence. shaun and kuanwee were rubbing medicated oil on my face and hands, idk who wrapped me in a poncho, idk who splashed water on me. that made me freeze. idk who used a towel and wet it and put it on my forehead. anyways, thanks to all of you for your care and concern uhh. you guys are appreciated much. proof that marco polo is united uhh, or starting to unite. so i was sent to the medical centre, i got forced to eat lunch, when i didnt have an appetite at all. then i got forcd to rest in the sick bay. i couldn't get much rest. for one, these 2 women entered and invaded my bed in the middle. i asked to be sent back to join the rest, seriously, but she siad i had to wait for em to complete the trek. i feel real bad for making them carry my stuff uhh. sorry much, and thanks much. i finally joined back with them, had cooking competition, where everyone was the winner. and marco polians all over the place were making a fool of ourselves. i dressed up as mr ahyar, impersonated a few pple, and went racing in the trolley until some instructor reprimanded us(me and my driver, jeshua!) haha. sleep was up next, after a few irrelavant activities. we couldnt sleep at first, we were supposed to hang out, but the only pple who went were heetesh(he wanted to shit) jasmine, erina and myself. we talk talk talk, gossip gossip gossip, then weijie joined in, we went on, the horror of all horrors, AHBOO CAME. she made us write a reflection. -.-haha. went to sleep after that. mission impossile uhh, the snoring machine, shannon phua peh hsien was in the tent right next to me. in fact we were right next to each other cos our doors faced each other and we both slept at the door. -.-

last day

lets see, jetty jump was pretty fun. especially since we all had to shout out sth we learnt abt life i think before jumping. so yeah, it was awesomee. especially the few seconds that you're floating or flying, before hitting the water surface. after bathing we had store inspection and soon after, it was time to part.

the whole camp was a totally new learning experience to me. it's pretty evident to me now that nobody can succeed in life all alone. everyone needs a team and family as well as friends to support them. i'm grateful to everyone for making the whole thing less tough with the dumb stuffs that we do.

to Rachel,Jasmine,Merilyn,BoonYee,HuiJun,JiaYou,Heetesh,Farhan,Shaun,KuanWee,Shannon,Nicholas,Jeshua and haziq, you guys sure made this whole thing enjoyable and meaningful.

Heetesh, you've been a beyond great help to me. You're a great pillar of support too. great times in 2E huh?

well, thats about all i can remember. yeah.

till i stick my ass back here,

adios.

hun, i missed you like **** laa. good thing i could call and text you huh? sorry for the whole day of inactivity though, phone went bonkers. i love you sotong! wasted i didn't see any in the sea. haha

this is for you, dear.

2008-06-23T18:28:00.002+08:00

okayy,
i mean my words aight.
this shall go on till the end of my time.
till the day i die.
we're gna get through this 4 days together yeah?
we can do it,
for sure.
you just hafta be strong.
and definitely,
i'm gna miss you.
and i'm duper sorry bout in the bus just now uhh,
i finally got struck by reality
and i didn't like the prospect of being away for 4 fucken days.
it was once again another great day out huh?
;D
well,
this is about all the time i've got left.
hafta pack and get myself ready for the shit they're gna throw.
please don't forget me,
or cry,
when i'm away.
i love you laa.
and i'll look out for you when i get back.

2008-06-19T17:48:00.002+08:00

well.
10 random facts.

1. i'm in love :D
2. best in bravo 5. ;D (the plague is right in my face, and i cant think of anything else)
3. i hate pple who dwell on the past.
4. i dislike ddoing homework
5. i hate being phoneless
6. i dislike mtv
7. anti mainstream
8. i am a boy
9. i'm 1.73m tall.
10. you suck.
:)

thanks for helping me waste 5 mins of my life whoever started this.
get me sth make 4 fucken days fly without a phone pls?

2008-06-19T16:22:00.003+08:00

okayy,

getting platoon best cadet for bravo 5 during spec course sure is a great achievement,

especially since i got out of course from ake.

happy, naz is.

i swear i never saw it coming.

so yeaaaa.

first day was pretty screwed up.

had 2 mutuals, then lesson.

and gsk test at night.

the four that actually stayed, out of the nine.

tsk tsk.

so jon was overall outstanding cadet.

congrats bitch.

too bad chris,

haha.

maybel, alpha 2 best.

mardiah, alpha company best.

alpha 1 best was zahin,

alpha 3 best was some maris guy,

bravo 4 was a phs guy

bravo 6 best was faiz frm juying

bravo company best was some phs guy,

yeah.

and we each got a plague.

shall we meet again at senior spec?

well till the next time,

i love you lah sia!

and yeap, i wont lie to you,

and i wasn't lying when i told you what i did.

no worries.

that was the truth.

2008-06-14T15:07:00.002+08:00

darn it,
i got sent home halfway through ake.
was vomiting then fever.
fuck.
there goes my badge.
along with my ake shirt,
sleeping bag,
and loads more stuff.
hq ncc sure is screwed up.
they cant effing handle a simple case without screwing up.
my dad would testify to that.

so yesterday was truckloads of fun.
it was almost 2 effing weeks since we met up huh?
so we watched prince caspian,
which was pretty awesome. :D
it ended at 1815,
and hun was late to get home.
O:
my bad,
took eighty then thirteen.
thanks for yet another great day dear!
:D
i'm holding out for a hero til the end of the night
til i find the time to stick my sweet ass on this chair,
adios.

hun, thanks for an awesome month laa!
you know i love you!
:D
and yes, just for you i shall quickly heal!

2008-06-09T11:18:00.002+08:00

damn.
this would be my last post for the next week or so.
first off is AKE.
not fun.
4 days and 3 nights.
then friday is gna be a great day,
monday is land module,
not that bad i guess.
so,
i have nth much left to say,
i shall be gone.

and please, keep your word?
cos if you do cry,
you're gna make me uber guilty.
i'll be fine, don't have to worry.
:D
love you laa awesome sotong!
and happy one month in advance!
it sure was a great month huh?
;D

2008-06-05T18:21:00.002+08:00

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
i'd prolly think of what i did wrong

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
that people in the world would stop fighting,

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
hmm.

#4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i would spend it on making the world a better place.

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
someone like farahin. yeah.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loving.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
hmm, 10-20 minutes. :D

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
idk.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
mum making me cancel plans cos of 'her plans'

#10. What is the worst you've ever felt these days?
pissed like hell. alot of times.

#11. What cheers you up the fastest?
FARAHIN!

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
flying a plane.

#13. Who is currently the most important people to you?
family[DUH], her, friends.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
AWESOME!

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married and poor. money ain't everything to me.

#16. What's the first thing you do every morning?
laptop!

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
idk.

#18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
-.- never will that happen.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
the kinds that can be trusted.

2008-06-05T14:07:00.004+08:00

damn,
was supposed to meet hun.
then mum last minute say no.
i was looking forward to it uhh.
that pretty much screwed up my whole day uhh.
well, the whole morning was spent on the com.
as per normal.
updated ipood after ages.
lalalala
i really have nth much to say.
i'm bored and blogging is making it worse.
and idk why
but i find aiden nice again.
after two years.
not the new album though,
the older ones are okay.

i miss you laa.
what luck huh?
idiots love sotongs!
;D
that won't change!

2008-06-04T15:29:00.002+08:00

so sea module is over and done with,
ake on monday,
land module on the following monday. -.-
so much for holidays.

let's see,
sea module was shit.
waited long for the bus to changi,
waited even longer to surrender phone and all,
then attire check.
followed by lessons.
dang.
best part was lunch.
sedap siol.
then bends and hitches.
that was the first day,

second day-
bus was pretty early,
bag check at changi-.-
and hasif, tsktsktsk.
lessons again.
nucking futs.
bends and hitches test,
i could actually do the knots,
but not the uses.
lunch again,
again, SEDAP SIOL.
then lessons again and i slept.
amazingly it was the first time throughout the course.
i paid attention can?
then met hun at redground.
got home, ate bathed
and fell asleep
at effing 2000.
wtf?

last day,
theory exam,
no food!
D:
haha.
guess tk might have 14 2sgs.
haha
hope so.

and dammit my knee is hurting,
idk why.

well,
till i find the will to blog again,
adios.

i love you laa, awesome sotong!
hehh, my turn to laa everything!
;D

2008-05-30T11:19:00.002+08:00

gahh,
it seems to me,
that everytime i screw up
the ones i love suffer most.
dammit.
but now its a lil too late,
this shall not happpen again.

and yeah, i've had it up to my head
with being your punching bag.
all i ever get when you're home is shit.
why can't i be 20 and working at night?
so that you can find another victim.
the wall prolly?
try not to bring your damned problems home will ya?
we've all had enough.
if you think just cos i screwed up
you can fuck my life up,
for shits sake you're wrong.
we've all got feelings dammit.
i shall endure this as much as i possibly can,
but don't go overboard.
everything has a damned limit.
remember the last time?

so i'd be going out,
like finally.
wanna buy that bag laa.
but i'm money-less.
and the best part,
i didn't spend at all.
wtf.

and and,
time isnt on our side is it?
passes so slowly when i'm away from you
yet so quick when i'm with you

this nightmare won't last long,
are you scared to sing this song?
i'm right here by your side,
and tonight we'd have this chance.

sunrise sunset would you wash away the rain?
sunrise sunset would you wash away the pain?
don't be scared, we'll make this work.

well,
till the next time i stick my ass on this chair,
and keep my eyes glued to this darn screen,
goodbye

2008-05-26T07:41:00.002+08:00

dammit.
myes were screwed.
and now i'm screwed.
sorry you have to suffer.
suffer for my mistakes.
but, i swear
i'll work sth out.
no worries.
cheer up dear.

so i can't go for soccer.
wow, amazing.
might as well ban me from ncc right?
and we soccer dudes are actually training.
we're training so that we can come back stronger.
stronger than this year.
where we succumbed to pressure and lost.

but i guess i'd have to face the consequences.
consequences i never saw coming.
coming this hard rather.

and its the damned holidays.
we can't see each other so often.
D:

i already miss you can.
and where would i be on our first month?
in the sea. =.=

well,
till the next time.
you're loved.

2008-05-10T20:22:00.003+08:00

okayy,
kayaking alone after a long time aint something to look forwad to.
was worn out after the second round.
darn it.
hafta get back the fitness i had last year.

and adam didnt turn up on thursday.
so much for meeting at bedok at 8.
the trip was a total waste of time,
eating lunch was forgettable too.
tom yum that tasted unlike tom yum.
went to masjid sultan.

trashed hairi in fifa '06,
soccer-ed the remaining of the day away
looking for places to play,
like nomads,
until settling at simpang.

and chris,
try to be punctual the next time.
dont come at 0811 when you said 0800.

so yeah tdy was kayaking day,
nth much interesting.
other than the fact that part c's took the training.

so yeah, that's about all for now.

So its onto the next ones now
A fresh start, some new blood
Catch them unaware
Strike deep with double edged tales
Of your historic suffering
Now youve won them over
Its time to sew the seeds of your only nature
Deceit

2008-05-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

okayy,
don't start asking me why i suddenly started blogging again.
got bored i suppose.

well,
the weeks been awesome,
especially tuesday.
go figure.
;D

and ironman was watched today.
pretty okay i guess.
but it could have been better.

so chinatown trip is tomorrow,
not looking forward to it.
and there's kayaking on saturday
even better.

exams are over finally over and i swear i'm not looking forward to results.
it would definitely affect my holidays.

ahh well, what's done is done.

till the next time,

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
Shattered glass keeps falling
-say goodnight by bfmv

2008-05-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

ahh, i'm back.
let's go on and pen the darned thoughts.
if you don't wanna read, then go click that little red x on your top right hand corner.
your hypocritical presence don't make things better.

ah well, you totally deserved what happened the other day.
i've been waiting for a day like that.
and it ain't my fault that you never thought of doing what i did aye.

the week was okay, other than a few incidents here and there.
and well, may seems like its gonna be a great month for me.
;D

been rather high and happy lately,
i seriously dont know why.
then again,
some people have got on my wrong side
and try to piss the living ... out of me,
but i'm still holding onto that wee bit of patience.

gahh, falling sick again.-.-
but i've found the greatest cure,
and codenames are fun.
;D
go figure.

oh well, staring at the screen at 0107 hrs aint that fun,
and my eyes are staying shut,
still hafta go for that obs check up
and get medicine
prolly study,

so yeah,
till the next time.
in a year, a month, a week or a day.
who knows?

tonight will be the night that i will fall for you,
over again,
don't make me change my mind,
i won't live to see another day,
i swear it's true,
because a girl like you is impossible to find.
-fall for you; secondhand serenade

2008-03-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

ah.
i owe you an apology,
i guess i was an ass.
wait, i know i was.
you're awesome,
but i guess i never treated you well enough.
no,
i wasn't taking advantage of you.
i guess i was torn apart.
i couldn't think straight,
i couldn't even stand on my own feet.
i was lost
i was depressed.
but yeah,
time didn't really heal my wounds,
it only made me get used to the pain,
now i'm back on my own feet,
i've learnt to ignore certain stuff,
and concentrate on what's in front of me,
what needs to be attended to,
it's unfortunate, really.
i'm really sorry you had to be on the receiving end
of my evil and screwed side.
the side i don't wish to be seen in.
a state of mind where
the only thing that matters,
is for me to get back.
to avenge what you took.
to avenge the pain you caused.
to get back for the damned pain you brought upon us all.
i swear,
one day i'll show you.
i'll prove to you,
i'm not as mentally weak as you think.
i'm not that little useless prick you take me for.
i'm not deserving of the bloody treatment you give.
i'm not as physically weak as you think.
one fine day, you shall see.
the side of me nobody else has.
the side that was only seen once.
the side that you said you never wanted to see anymore.
with every damned word you say,
i move closer to the edge,
i move within inches of the corner.
don't say i never warned you.
you damn well know what i'm capable of.
you've grown up with me,
you watched my every step.
watch my next few,
they may just be the last ones that you see,

2008-03-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

oh,
i forgot.
part c's
this sat bring along all the damned items on the list for ake prep.
the ones i can remember:
1)booties
2)change of clothes
3)sunblock
4)1.5l bottle
5)wet gear
6)gloves(optional)
7)bailer(die die must bring)
8)snacks(optional)

remember, ma'am expects the 22 going to be top
;D
not so difficult is it?

2008-03-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

ahh.
blogging again.

i won't struggle on.
i've got my doubts in you.
but i can't effing forget you.
you're what's on my mind all the time.
you're the scene that keeps repeating itself.
no, i'm not saying its iritating.
i don't mind, really.
but it just makes things hard.
yeah,
you've got him,
till you forgot certain things that you told me.
i feel it all welling up inside.
hearts beat as one, but minds on different frequencies.
what's happening to me?
hours in the cold waiting for you,
now i realize it's wasted.
i wasted my life away,
but it's all for you.
there's nothing more important.
can someone wake me from this nightmare.
cos when i see your face,
my heart bursts into fire.
i'll wait forever.
but then again,
maybe you'd even forget of my existence.
i'm screaming
i'm dying
i'm hurting
am i waiting for something that'd never happen?
am i waiting for something that you'd never let happen?
am i waiting for something that's equivalent to the sky dropping?
some things are worth fighting for,
some feelings never die.
i just wanna know why.
giving it can't be wrong.
ahh,
let's stop my ranting.
i'm just not good enough for you am i?

just needed to get it off my chest.
shall stop here.
for now.

and til you realise,
i'd be here where you can find me.

2008-02-20T17:13:00.002+08:00

ah.
it sure has been long.

forget about the shit that we've been through.
i wanna stay here, with you.
and these memories i'll hold dear.
it goes on and on and on.
we fell apart, let's make a new start.
and i found you,
something told me to stay.
so put that smile back on my face.
i'm not running away,
such a price that we pay.
i'm cold to the touch.

i will wait for you forever.
you changed me,
when will you see?
it's not so easy.

erase my name from this page,
how can you take all these words and throw them away.
and i was kept waiting,
for you.

i miss you, i miss you so.
did you get what you deserve?
is this what you've been waiting for?

if you were here,
i'd never have a fear.
so go, live that life of yours.
but i'll miss you more than i did yesterday.
and i mean this more than words could ever say

we're all made from the sharpest things they say,
but we are young and we don't care,
we never wanted it to be this way.

2007-07-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep tonight
Stab me direct in my heart
Watch me bleed;
I'm lying at your feet
Dying, living for for just one last breath with you
I live, for you and only you
Stop lying; you know I'd lie with you
We're dying on the inside
You're smiling on the outside
Settle the score.
Knife Vs. face round 1
Stab me direct in my heart
Watch me bleed;
I'm lying at your feet
Dying, living for for just one last breath with you
Forget the taste of me and follow your instinct
Stab me directly in my heart
Watch me bleed;
lying at your feet
Dying, living for for just one last breath with you
Retreat
This river mustn't take us both
This river mustn't take us both
Hand to hand brother
One by one
Are you happy?
You got what you wanted
I'm lucky, I'm here with my someone
My everything, you'll bleed to death on me
You're a ten when you are lying next to me
Heavy breathing
Are you happy? You got what you wanted
You're winter, I left you for summer
My everything, you'll bleed to death on me
Nothing to see here outlined in white
Just the red on the carpet
The scene of the crime
The devil made you do it
Why do it just for the fashion?
Where, oh where, has my baby been?
I would die to hear your voice
You've been gone so long, I can't feel you
And your hand on my heart beating true
Did you think I'd live without you?
You belonged to me
I miss your face
I lost my place
I lost my faith
Letting go is the hardest thing I know
Like this bullet pierces through my skull
The endI love the feel of steel in my heart
Like I love the bitter taste of your kiss
Natural blissI'm a sucker for a happy ending
Iterrupted by a nightmare
Here comes loveChivalry
Take a knife to your wrists make a bloodbath
Cut it deep, It's the new thing
Baby please make this last forever
You're the lastest fashion theme
The first time, the last time
The first time in my life
Light wil ignite us
We're all bloodthirsty killers
We're all dead
Open water, the tides have shifted
Like clockwork, the sharks arrive at dawn
Razor cut like a smile
Straight through11.
The Show Must Go On
Everyone loves a drama
Everyone loves the drama
Let's set the stage on fire and Hollywood will be jealous
When the lights go out
Everyone loves a drama
Everyone loves the drama
As she stared into the night was the castle dressed in white
Behind her virgin eyes the mirror image of her plague
And darkness overcame until she screamed alone in vain
Oh how lovely as she gasps, yet so innocently sleeping
And forever she will haunt, now manifest this disease
The misfortune of the weak I'll tell you what it is
Walk down these tragic steps
Disappearing with no trace, nothing left
This was the perfect murder
The perfect murder
In the ballroom with a glass, remembering it all at last
The memory of her first kiss led to a series of unfortunate events
She'll dance to the sound of the clock striking twelve
Your name in diamonds
Why won't you finish the job

2007-06-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

Lip Gloss And Black-Atreyu

If I gave you pretty enough words.
Could you paint a picture of us that works.
An emphasis on function rather than design.
Aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
And blown out knees,
I have been where you are for a while..

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream.
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night.
every evening that I die.
I am exhumed
just a little less human
and a lot more bitter and cold.
I am exhumed..
just a little less human....
So much more bitter and cold...
After all these images of pain,
have cut right through you,
I will kiss every scar,
and weep you are not alone...
Then I'll show you that place in my chest
where my heart still tries to beat.

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream.
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night.
every evening that I die

Live love burn die

well,how can you blame someone for getting addicted to a song?
lets see..
yesterday..
hospital with my granddad
dont wish to elaborate on that
today was fun though,
shopped alot with my mum
to make up for the missing shopping from malaysia maybe ?
hmm..
bought a bodyshop eaudetoilette
a nightmare before christmas weighing scale
don't ask me why,
it looked cool
ate at banquet
hairi,
start drooling
ate that black pepper beef thing,
with loads of chilli padi to accompany it,
my watch has to be sent back to the agent
cos of the strap..
shit..
then was tuition..
loads of my things are slowly dying
why man?!?!
xbox has to be swapped for a new one on tues
gonna eat that pizza hut
pasta thing mith my mummy
yeah man
and josh,
hope the air is clear eh?

till then,
shut up and listen to the merry voices singing

2007-06-12T15:24:00.001+08:00

heyy
back from malaysia
not that bad actually

the ride there was boring as usual
went for friday prayers
at some kampung mosque
went straight to everly resort
or sth liddat

blahblahblah

saturday

went to some mall
didnt buy anything
didnt want to
the best part of the trip was this,
we went to some new mosque
bcos we went with my grandparents
and i met someone ..
..
.
((:
jeepers
back at the hotel
we kinda went to a gym
haha
fun((:
and we actually rented a carrom board
and my parents arent that bad

sunday

sunday was travelling malaysia day
we drove to
port dickson
negeri sembilan
putrajaya
and kl
on the way,
we saw this female deer
at a eating place
it was cute
everytime we wanted to pat it,
it would stick its head out of the fence
and let us pat ((:
at port dickson we just sat at the side
for awhile
and left for putrajaya
we went to that mosque
that abdullah badawi went
it was huge
and cos my granddad was on a wheelchair
we managed to enter the VIP toilet
just me and him
it was awesome
kl was crapped
we dropped by,
walked around a little
and left
cos of rain
and we were damn lucky
after we left,
kl was engulfed by floods

monday

check out day
i slept much later than usual
left for home
went to eat at pasir gudang
nth much else happened
and now im on my ass
typing out all that i could remember

and fangning,
real sorry,
i didnt buy no gum
)):

2007-06-07T12:37:00.000+08:00

back
ytd trng was crap
first off as usual was running
we all had to run 8 rounds
around the TWO fields at APSN
after that was training proper which was fun
blahblahblah
went to eat with hairi and joshua
at the shop oppo the prata shop
and let me tell you this
dont ever go there
its overpriced
and the food was crap

after that was home
met aisyah and nissa there
spent the whole night listening to music
crapping
watched deal or no deal
it has to be the stupidest show
neways
they went home after that
everyone else went to bed
i wanted to stay up to watch
euro '08 qualifiers
but i fell asleep as usual

and dammit
my xbox 360?
its spoilt
some hardware problem or what shit
im heartbroken man
hafta send it for repair
i cant live without it!!
damn

ill be off to melaka tomorrow
for 4 days

so,
till then

2007-06-05T17:17:00.000+08:00

ok..
ytd was that friendly with vs..
dan scored once
sija twice
yellow cards for both ajay and josh
victoria scored two penalties
against me and zul
damn..
match was ok actually
although the win was almost worthless
loads of guys asked to be subbed out
josh,parvesh and rifat all got injured
hans didnt play
dev came for fun
desmund didnt come
quite fun actually
aft that went 7-11
kudos to rifat for treating us all ((:
and the songs are new
stupid myflashfetish thing
till then

2007-05-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

the songs are new
and they work
some are diff from the original
enjoy
there's always the mute button
and also that lil x at the top right corner

2007-05-30T12:55:00.000+08:00

this world is gone
the only thing that you see in the news is killing all over the place
if it isnt killing or crime or whatever shit you can think of,
it's gonna be something like fallen tree kills or storm
its like more peopleare dying as compared to those that are being borned
look at iraq
after the god damned americans left
the place is as good as hopeless
and aceh?
after the tsunami,
the place is still scattered with rubble and corpses
whats going on out there?
where did all the good guys go?
and you might think that a cop is a good guy,
BULLSHIT
i've heard of cops raping innocent schoolgirls
and more recently,
a third nsmen died
what is the army doing to these men?
can't we get friggin peace?
can't we go back to the days where war only occured as a last resort?
is it so difficult to stop chemical warfare?
to stop using war and killing to settle differences?
to use our mouth to settle problems and not our fists?
can't we just live in PEACE
can't bush go get a life away from the us govt?
if u think this is political and your government is insulted,
i don't give a damn cos all i am doing here,
is stating the god damn facts
look at the crime rates all over the world
look at how many innocent people have died from war
from massacres
from famine?
what on earth happened to all the SAMARITANS?
look,
all we have to do is to stop hating
and start loving
start using our brains and mouth
not weapons or fists
PEACE DAMMIT
PEACE

2007-05-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

"I Set My Friends On Fire"

(I set) I set (my friends) my friends on fire (fire)
well I looked at your grave I do not feel alive
(I set) I set (my friends) my friends on fire (fire)
well I looked at your eyes I do not feel alive.
I set (I set) my friends (my friends) on fire,
now I will give up
(I set) I set (my friends) my friends (fire) on fire,
now I will give my life.

If I tell you now I will not feel alive,
If I kill you now I will not feel pride,
If I kill you now I have set those fields on fire,
what's this? One More Time.
Burn-Lies-Lies-one more time,
Burn-Lies-Lies-set, one more time

[Whispers:]
tisiv ot ecalp ecin a si lleh
(hell is a nice place to visit)

Yaaaaa, yaaaaaa, well I gave one more time,
Yaaaaa, yaaaaaa, well I gave one more time now,

"The sun came through the leaves and lit them up like it was on fire, right at sunset"
Let's look the world into the eyes (like it was on fire)
and say just one more time (like it was on fire), much less.
Let's look the world into the eyes (like it was on fire)
and say just one more time, one more time

One more time!
Yeah, one more
Yeah, one more time
One more life when I pray it's time.
When I gave one more time,
to lie into the after life,
One more time.
I praise one more lie.

2007-05-29T15:19:00.000+08:00

ok...
after a damn long time
i'm back

lets see.. results.. shitty..

combined marks:
ENGLISH LANGUAGE - 52.1
MALAY LANGUAGE - 75
MATHEMATICS - 58.3
SCIENCE - 58.0
GEOGRAPHY - 56.5
HISTORY - 51.1
LITERATURE - 54.1
DESIGN AND TECHNOLOGY - 54.1
VISUAL ARTS - 46.1

damn!!

tk soccer rocks man

third in the east.

lost to greenview 4-0

beat siglap 3-2

the trophy with the spinning ball is way cool

sea com's coming and training starts about now

camp feast is on the 16th-17th july

and the champions league starts soon too

can't wait

tk will go all the way

((:

have to work harder ar ..

double science aint that easy

till then ,

2007-03-26T20:13:00.000+08:00

heyy !! i'm back !! hah .. good news and bad news today .. it aint asthma .. YAY!! but it might be a lung infection .. BOO !!! damned man .. x-ray tmr will confirm it .. neways i got work to do..yeah..so ciao..

2007-01-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

when the hell are you gonna fucking notice that you are not fucking welcome in my life,its already hell and now ure pouring a whole ton of kerosene on it?what's your fucking problem?love to lie so much uh?u are fucking lucky that it was in the morning and i didnt wanna fight early in the fucking morning..and YOU who the hell wants to throw a fucking piece of paper at you?who the fucking hell even wants to see your face?get this right,fucking brinjal,the bloody color doesnt fucking suit you!did you ever fucking notice that?accuse me ah fun right?since youre such a fucking clean freak,why don't you take the place of all the fucking cleaners?then you can fucking clean the school as much as u want..don't you noe that its fucking school!who cares bout its cleanliness?it aint our freaking problem..and if anyone wants to fucking comment bout my language,FUCK OFF..ITS MY BLOG NOT YOURS!I CAN PUT WHATEVER I WANT IN IT..SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOURE READING THEN WHY DONT YOU PRESS THE EXIT BUTTON?FUCKING IDIOTS..MY LIFE IS HELL WITHOUT ALL OF YOU!!NOT EVERYONE IS RICH AND NOT EVERYONE IS SMART!!I HAVE TO FUCKING WORK HARD!FOR NOW DON'T FUCKING TALK TO ME!!THAT GOES TO EVERYONE!!I DON'T WANNA SOCIALISE ANYMORE!!WHO CARES IF I DIE??I DON'T WANNA HAVE A FUNERAL!DON'T SPILL YOUR FUCKING FAKE TEARS!!I'M BETTER OFF ALONE THAN WITH FUCKING ASSHOLES LIKE YOU!!

2007-01-27T18:35:00.000+08:00

okk..its been a long time sinca i last updated and i really mean a long time.lemme see..nth much happened since the start of the year..first week of school was boring..DUH!!week 2 was no different though..start of cca's i suppose..week 3 had IMT got 14 out of 20..sad sad..this past week had to be the most fun week so far.on wednesday,took taxi all the way down to tm to accompany Sara for lunch..now i'm broke..sad sad..the same day,i met a lady named bee hoon..wth?haha..took a trainback to school and i ran frm the mrt station to school..maybe bout 400 metres?hah..had soccer and i was late..i ended the week in a way that i never imagined would happen..i was playing soccer at the court aft solat and i somehow managed to kick the ball high enough to break a window pane..i went to the office to report the incident and the frigging om made me wait for him for 1 hour..ass..wth right?

song of the day:and you call this tragedy by alesana
till then..

2006-12-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

ok..today was quite boring basically..hari raya haji..went fer prayers beside geylang..then was breakfast at chai chee..then went home fer awhile..the best part was at sims drive i hafta say..played with my cousins through out the whole time i was there..haha..fun can?then we had to leave early to go back to chai chee cos atuk wanted to have the bbq already and the time was 2++..so it started..but it wasn't really a bbq..u would expect evryone to sit together and eat in a bbq budden wad happened was everyone watched tv while the guys including me did the bbq-ing..ouh and i thought that we would like stay until the countdown..but wth..evryone went home..lame right??its ok lah we're gonna countdown anyway..my mum is planning to go out..never knew she was so cool..spent whole of yesterday with mm,andy and seby a.k.a sebestian..went to far east first to eat and since andy wanted to get his macbeth sunglasses we waited for him..then it was to cine to watch night at the museum..the movie was kinda ok but i didn't really like it..i can't believe i actually spent $10 at the arcade!!bloody hell..andy wanted to go bowling so we drove all the way to downtown east only to find out the place isn't there anymore..ended up eating at a place called sakura..the food there..wow..buffet..imagine that..then we drove back to east coast for bowling at marine cove..seby didn't play..loser right..well till then..

2006-12-23T15:28:00.000+08:00

back again..just got home from aisyah's hse yesterday..midzi gt into st andrew's..lucky fart..the hall is bloody air-conditioned..the best part is that he can wear sports shoes..bloody hell..but i pity him cos there's onli 2 malays including him in his class..so tomorrow is my big day..haha..time really flies fast man..i'm not expecting anything this year..in fact i don't really care..i'll just take whatever anyone gives me..anyone wanna go penin wif me?i wanna get a shirt..aisyah and nissa both got a thursday and atticus shirt at $12..bloody hell..at 2001 it was $40..nvm..i'll go wif them someday and i'll get one too :)..this week was damn fun spent time wif midzi for 5 whole days..
till then

2006-12-20T10:59:00.000+08:00

back..been playing xbox alot these past few days..won midzi(my cousin)oh so many times in both world cup and burnout revenge..loser!!ok..he won me a few times but i still emerged as the overall champion!!muahaha..then the best part was when we helped my uncle and saw someone who we called 'stripey'..midzi likes her like crazy..he claims he's in love..the argument bout 'stripey' lasted through out the whole night..ahaha..been runnin in the rain alot these days..it's damn fun actually..got midzi addicted to tears don't fall from bfmv..haha..gonna sleep at his hse todae..ciao and till then

2006-12-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

back..just found out that mrs ong gave holiday homework..darn..went to work as usual..the best part of the day was handphone hunting!!decided to wait till 2nd jan to buy a new phone cos then i can get better offers..N73 at $99 how's that?it's either that or the 5300..budden tt fone alot of ppl using oredi ah..oh yar!!i finally got my first yellow card in my life after two consecutive beautifully crafted two-footed lunges!!haha..on Friday,out of about 40 people in the team,only 13 showed up..what the hell right..we were like a platoon and the gabrielites were like a whole company..i played 2 1/2 matches..only because i was on a empty stomach and felt like vomiting during the second match in which i played goalkeeper..i got alot of encouragement from the guys..and i was motivated to perform well..and anyone who has the homework worksheet pls help me scan and send it to me via e-mail..thanks..
till then

2006-12-14T16:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys..just got back from melaka..tiring uh..spent the first night at some place that sucked to the core only because mum does not like driving at night and she won't allow dad to do so..the next day went to riviera bay resort which changed its name to everly resort..lame right?met bik noi and family there..watched prisoner of azkaban three times that day cos that was all they were showing..went out at nite and bought nothing..went to starbucks:)oh yar.. i finally got my haircut:(just got back from work and am quite worn out..the place was frigging crowded ah..farewell for now

2006-12-10T08:25:00.000+08:00

okk..this post is a day late..nth much happened..english premier leauge results for Saturday 09 December: Manchester United 3-1 Manchester City,Liverpool 4-0 Fulham,Middlesborough 1-1 Wigan,Blackburn Rovers 1-3 Newcastle,Tottenham Hotspurs 5-1 Charlton,Portsmouth 2-0 Everton,Watford 0-0 Reading,Bolton 4-0 West Ham.Gosh..I can't imagine that i haven't slept since last night..i watched most of the matches..now i feel tired..haha..check out the two vids..they are simply great..the song that is..now,that is music..
till then,

2006-12-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY MR SHAZANI HARIZ BIN HARMAN SHAH DON'T FORGET ABOUT MY TURN IN 15 DAYS TIME AH!!HAHA

2006-12-09T10:59:00.000+08:00

damn..yesterday's matches both ended up in losses..c div lost 2-1 while b div lost 8-4 i think..c div could have drawn 2-2 if only my free kick was slightly lower..damn..after the matches we went to banquet..then i followed nasrul aman ken and ryan to queensway to choose the jersey and look at boots..then me,ryan and kenneth took a lift from syafiq's dad to bedok.i went to airport to meet my mum and sis for dinner..on the way there,i fell aslepp in the bus and a stewardess woke me uip at the airport..damn malu seyy..fell asleep again during the bus journey home..haizzzzzz maybe i am still feeling tired from the amount of activities in this week..guys do come for this monday's training and wednesday's and friday's matches..till then i am out of here

2006-12-07T11:22:00.000+08:00

omfg..i didn't notice how long it has been since i last posted..gosh..time really flies..i won't even bother to try and remember what has happened but i shall post bout camp..the first day was okay..had light pt..bag checking..bunk cleaning after..then we had circuit training which was the most tiring item of the day..basically all the groups cheated at it lah..after that was drills and drills and more drills..at about 4 we were told to change to pt kit and we played soccer all the way to 6now let's fast forward to after dinner..we had a movie watching session at first we watched tom and jerry..haha..then it was the maid..jonathan and me were like finding ways to not watch cos he was scared..we ended up talking to each other until when staff zi heng left the coe room then we went to race each other on staff's fone and gent's fone..after that was time to wash-up..then the part i dreaded lyk crazy..SOLO SLEEP..it was not so scary lah..we had to sleep in separate classrooms..unfortunately for me i had a splitting headache in the middle of the night..sigh..went to the canteen and got instigated by ma'am and staff ronald..gent justin massaged my head and commented that my hair was lyk a wig..ahah..then a gent gave me lemsip and i went back to 3j and fell asleep soon after..then it was owedi tyme to wake up..again had light pt..then got ready to go for amazing race..sigh..tiring lah..walked from skool to indoor stadium then to suntec and the to esplanade..had to take mrt to tampines and after that walk to white sands..that was even more tiring..had lunch at mac and then made our way to downtown east..went to wild wild wet..had loads of fun and then back to school..we had wargames..waterbomb war..haha..then war games again only this time was lyk a obstacle course..i hid behind a bench and the bloody thing had to topple on my freaking head!!then i got hit by a soap bomb cos i warned my platoon mates not to volunteer themselves..see guys i am such a nice guy!!haha..that nyte we slept in a tent..i slept lyk a baby haha..next morning i had to go for a soccer match against victoria..c div won 2-1 while b div lost..i am not gonna state the score..think that's about all lah..gotta go now..will post again soon..

2006-08-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

gawd..today must be the worst day ever.i got banned from the semi-final..dammit..i suppose it was my own fault..i shouldn't have said so much to the ref.got myself into this situation.it is not a nice feeling to know that if the team wins you weren't there cheering them on and when they lose you weren't there to suffer the pain with them.derrick too got a match ban.but at least the ref didn't hear what i said.i suppose it was my not able to control my anger that got me into this.looks like i have to look at this with an optimistic view.not give up and move along.this is just another lesson that i have to learn from.i am thinking of going to the match venue straight after school and support the team.i should have enough time.maybe i can take a taxi.i just hope that if we get into the final i can be able to at least go and watch and support the guys..and yeah like i promised i would go blad if we get into the finals
see ya ppl

2006-08-11T19:19:00.000+08:00

just got back from the match against bowen.the referee was a bangla.actually he is a turbanator..he didn't know nuts bout soccer..he gave alot of fouls to bowen and when they hand ball,they got away with it..so basically i lost my temper and started hurling abuse at the faggot.derrick also got into trouble..we lost 3-2.stupid referee.it should have been 2-2 cos they pushed our keeper into the goalpost.stupid sia the ref..so parvesh's father too started screaming at the ref.he called the referee a disgrace to their society.haha.this is how bad the ref is.he gave amir a yellow card as the ass from bowen dived..dumb right? he was never in the penalty box when either team attacked.he couldn't see anything from there..idiot sia..but at least we're in the semi-finals.top of the table now.. got scolding from coach twice for what i said to the ref..i actually shouted to him this "stick your cards back up your ass"..so blardy angry..now..we have to forget the past and move along..next match on the 17..hopefully i get to play..but i think..after what me and derrick said..neither of us will play..let's just wait and see..gotta prove to thecoach that he is not at a loss when he plays me..

2006-08-10T09:19:00.000+08:00

f*** my phone got confiscated..because of the fat slob named chan-ho..one month..wth..so yesterday went to watch the fireworks with my mum and dad.. sat by the kallang river and waited from six thirty to nine..after that went for dinner..then home..was online awhile then i had to go off cos my dad had work to do..waited for him finish then took over..spoke to her.and i think now she is angry at me..please don't be.forgive me ok?it will be the first and last time something like that would happen.

i loved you once.

2006-08-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

okk..my first blog..haha..credits to kak nisa she helped me make it..such a kind soul..today had ncc..so boring..pt all the way..well i did get what i wanted and everything went well on the first day of a new beginning..the skin is abit sadistic..haha i know..haziq is one dead gay..he said i had no taste..who the hell does he think he is??gtg now haha..
cya ppl soon

2006-07-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

Test test (: